I am not sure I know what balance is or feels like but I try my best. If I really take the time to think about everything that needs to get done and everyone that's needs my attention, I immediately get so overwhelmed I can't function. So I can only focus on so much at once. Sometimes balance feels like I am spinning plates and managing it pretty well. Then another plate is added and then another one. I keep smiling and continue spinning them all focusing on whichever plates are most wobbly and eventually some dishes crash around me, but I keep spinning the ones I can keep up. I know asking for help is one way to find balance or to put some of the plates down, but honestly I want to try to keep them all spinning under my control and expect to do it all on my own. I am a perfectionist and constantly am struggling to ask for help. This is not healthy. This year I am going to make better effort to find balance by asking for help without feeling shame for what I can't do.
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